(this is the 3rd post in my systematic living series)Repub or Dem?

Hi.  My name is Bob and I’m a recovering right-wing Republican.

If you knew me a handfull of years ago, you no doubt knew my politics.  I talked about John Kerry like he was an idiot, I thought anyone who was pro-tax-increases was a communist, and I had a 8 foot wide George W. election sign in my front yard (which I replaced every time the neighborhood kids tore it down).  I still think Kerry is an closer to an idiot than a saint, but lots of other things have changed over the past few years and my outlook on politics has changed, quite dramatically, with them.

You see, I’m a person of faith…a follower of Jesus.  I used to think that the obvious outpouring of my faith was to be a Republican.  I never really questioned that.  I think I’m at least a quasi-smart and thinking man, so it’s not like I was being led there blindly.  Many of the arguments and statements made by the party made lots of sense.  I found reason after reason to support my right-wingedness and I could out-argue any Democrat I came in contact with.  Then, one day, things started to change.

I hate to narrow this change down to a single moment because I think it had been a long time coming.  But, to make a longer life-story shorter, when I started reading The Great Awakening by Jim Wallis I was a confident, learned Republican.  I picked it up (without knowing who Wallis was or what the book was really about) because I was tired of the way the American church operated and the cover seemed like it addressed (and sympathized) with my current state of mind.  As I read, I got angry.  As I read further, I became furious.  “How could someone be so stupid” I thought.  “How could a Christian be so politically liberal?”  But for some reason, I kept reading.

I realized by the end of the book that while my anger was directed at Wallis (the book’s author), it was actually more directed at myself.  My way of thinking.  My way of living.  In the process of being so “right” (or Right), I was forgetting that there’s people behind those politics that Jesus loves and that Jesus cares about, regardless of their situation, their beliefs or their politics.

That’s when I started to see through the lies of the Republican Party.  I never realized before how hateful Right wing politics had become.  It totally neglects people for the benefit of The Free Market and lower taxes.  It says “if you don’t work hard you deserve to be poor and miserable”.  But guess what?  Jesus doesn’t think so.  Poor if it’s your doing, maybe…but miserable and living in deep dark despair?  Absolutely not.  I started to realize that even though the Christians I knew weren’t racist or sexist or thought the poor should suffer, they (and I) were supporting politics and policies that were exactly those things.  So, I knew I had to move away from that Right Wing.

So, did I become a Democrat?  Absolutely not.  In my years as a Republican, I saw all the problems with the Democratic party…so that part didn’t take any research.  I now understood why the Left Wing took many of it’s positions on issues (out of compassion for the poor, the minorities, those who are up against the world every day) and I agreed, in principal, with much of what they said. The problem was, it was still politics. It was still a game that they needed to win to stay in power.  They still took advantage of the average American to stay in power, which in the end, was their goal much more than helping those in need.

So there I was.  Searching for a systematic political structure to fit into.  Systematic living was the easy choice when it came to politics but it was the wrong choice. I could be a Republican or a Democrat (or one of the many other fringe parties) but none of my choices were fully right.  Politics (and the parties) could never be completely compatible with who Jesus wanted me to be.

These days I find that it’s really hard to willfully exist outside the political system (just as it’s always hard to exist outside of systematic living).  My Republican friends think I’m a baby-killing Democrat and my Democratic friends think I’m a cold-hearted Republican.  But this is where we all should be living. (I don’t usually presume that everyone should make the same choices I have, but I’m 99% sure that this is exactly where all people should be, or at the very least, where all Christians should be).  I’ve clearly seen both sides and I truly believe much of what they say is right (while much is wrong), and I think that anyone who buys into either fully is an unthinking systematic pawn.

Every time I talk with a Christian Republican and I hear the party-line being spit back at me, all I can see is their ignorance.  They’ve been hoodwinked by the Republican party into supporting Right Wing views because they’ve been convinced that it’s the “Christian party” to belong to. I don’t try and convince them otherwise, because I know that for me it truly took God’s intervention (through many experiences and one tough book) to help me see Truth.  I couldn’t possibly presume that a few words from me could change any minds.

At the same time, every time I talk to a hard-core Democrat (Christian or otherwise) I know that they’ve been fooled into thinking that the Democratic party actually cares about the poor and the downtrodden.  If they’re Christian, they’re often the “cool” Christian who thinks that being a Democrat makes Faith look “hip” to their Democratic posse, which is just as foolish as thinking tattoos or a pierced-nosed follower of Jesus will make Christianity seem less lame.  I let them be as well…there’s no out-arguing ‘hip’.  There’s no convincing them that Democratic leaders only really care about staying in power and are using the poor to keep themselves there.

Buying into any part of this system is counter to who Jesus wants me to be. Sure, we should vote.  We should be involved in the political process (it’s our duty as a citizen) but the second we identify ourselves as a Democrat or Republican, we’ve lost.  We’ve declared ourselves slaves to the systematic politcs that is so sick and clueless when it comes to real people and real issues.

So, next time you’re talking to me about politics, don’t expect me to take either side.  I refuse. I’ll support the individual issues and people that seem like their the most competent to keep our country functional.  So, I’ll see you at the voting booth, but know that I’ll be checking more than one big party-affiliated box on that voting form…I’ll have done my research and will be voting outside the system of brainless and easy politics.